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Monday, July 26, 2010, 7:06 PM

Deleted all my unhappy post. Because I'm not as upset as compared to a month ago. I have to say I'm so much better and stronger now. Even though at times I still fall. I guess I'm still picking myself up that's what I could say. I don't want you anymore. I only want the you 6 months ago. Not the you now. And I know time couldn't turn everything back. So I don't want you at all now. All I know is that I miss you so much. But still, not the you now. Thanks for the memories.

I guess I was looking for perfection in this relationship. Because of my past relationship I try to seek for perfection. I saw how happy we were at the start of it. How we could never have enough of each other. Things moved so quickly, I couldn't even be bothered with your flaws because that's what I'm falling in love with. I've seen how my close friends fall in and out of love. I've seen how some of them have someone perfect in their lives and that's what I wanted for myself.

A failed relationship for me once and have taught me how I should cherish the next one even more. I've learned and wanted the best for it. I'm also aware that I shouldn't put too much into it because I'll be the one at the losing end if it doesn't work out. But still I've overlooked that point. I just have so much to love. Maybe it wasn't my lost but his. I don't know. I believe I did my part in it.

All I ever want was my fairy tale, my part of happiness, someone who will love me as much as I love them.

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Byeeeee

Sunday, January 10, 2010, 10:44 AM

I found somewhere I can blog without prying eyesssss.

Byeeeeee!

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You made my heart skipped a beat!

2:06 AM

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:02:52 AM)

yea i actually wanted to just msn you and be friends

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:01 AM)

but things progress too fast

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:05 AM)

i cannot tahan

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:08 AM)

must make you mine alr

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:12 AM)

before its too late

xuefang says: (2:03:33 AM)

haha. are you trying to make me smile so you say that. or it's real?

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:39 AM)

reallllyyyy

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:49 AM)

feel my heart

*unicef kEn :D; Y&A says: (2:03:49 AM)

(L)

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Saturday, January 09, 2010, 9:33 AM

I think I really got all high last night.

It was just drinking without clubbing.

Such a waste.

But it was Vijay's Birthday.

Enjoyed myself with the guys. :D

I feel myself wasted when I reached home.

Cause I remembered I couldn't walk straight when I got out of the cab.

Then I actually lie flat on my bed without showering.

My whole world was spinning and I'm bloated with all the drinks.

But I forced myself up and went to get my clothes to shower.

And I am damn smart.

I actually fell down.

HAHA!

I felt like puking. :(

I thought by eating bitter chocolate I would be better.

So I brought the chocolates to the toilet and sat down in the toilet to you.

I can't believe I did so many weird things in one night.

Worse come to worse.

I dropped my chocolate on the toilet floor.

This post like getting no where.

I'm still like so highhhhhhhhhhhh.

LOL!

Till then for now.

TATA~

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Thursday, January 07, 2010, 6:20 PM

Yeah to FYP that is over!

Such a relief.

But here comes all the work and tuition.

But for the sake of BKK trip with baby and friends.

And also for the sake of supporting baby.

Haha!

Anyways, I get to go for this Hair Show.

But I'll be needed to snip half of my actual hair length away.

Ok, maybe even more than half.

Will I look nice with short hair?

Maybe like what Shanpheng said, a New Year and a New Start, why not?

I want a New Look!

Quite sick of my old hairstyle that I have for 7 seven years.

Can you believe 7 years and nothing new for my hair?

Ok la, maybe exclude the part that I dyed my hair a couple of times?

But hopefully I will like this new look for this start of a new life!

Till here then people! :D

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I See You! <3

Monday, January 04, 2010, 2:24 PM

I see you
I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more
Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

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Happy 2010 People!

Friday, January 01, 2010, 11:50 PM

Happy 2010!

I spent my day with my Baby of course.

Watched Alvin & the Chipmunks and Sherlock Holmes.

Both of them are niceee.

Probably Avatar tomorrow Baby?

I should really put my camera to use.

I haven't been taking much picture at all.

Had lots of heart to heart talk with Baby.

And the fact is I enjoy this type of talks.

It lets me understand him even more.

And in actual fact, I Like It!!!

And I am officially broke.

Both Baby and I spent our money together like nobody's business.

And that's pretty bad.

Promise I'm gonna earn more money!

Happy 2010 again people!!

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Goodbye to 2009 and Hello to 2010

Thursday, December 31, 2009, 3:54 PM

Here I am deciding to blog because Baby is gym-ing.

Many last thoughts for the Year 2009.

In Year 2009, many things come and go.

People entering and leaving your lives.

I'm glad for those who entered my lives.

Elaine, E24F Babies and my Dearest Kenric.

I'm also glad to realise who are those who wouldn't stay and who aren't truthful.

But the best part is those who will always be there and not go.

You guys know who you are ok?

Without you guys, there wouldn't be me here today.

My GFs

Thanks for being here all the while babes!

You girls never fail to always brighten up my days.

Always there helping me to sort through my thoughts.

My dear Baby

I'm so glad that I'd be able to meet you.

Glad that you came into my life.

If there isn't you now, I wonder how my life without you here.

I really have so much to say but I don't think I want to make this post super wordy.

Maybe I should talk about my resolutions for Year 2010?

Resolutions for Year 2010

1. Complete my FYP2 and passed it awesomely!

2. All my babies, girlfriends, loved ones and Ken baby to be happy, healthy, wealthy and forever here.

3. Able to graduate successfully by August 2010.

4. BKK trip in April to be successful!

5. Earn lots and lots of money!! $_$

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 11:23 AM

Not very sure where to start off this post.

Emmmmm. Let's see.

Saturday 26th December 2009

My tuition classes officially starts on that day.

Ok maybe some had already started.

When I was done with tuition went home to slowly get ready so that I could meet the girls.

Baby came online!

And I got my wonderful love story from him!

I was really really touched.

And no exact words could bring out the feelings in me.

And I just teared.

Prepared and then I'm off to meet Marisa for Starbucks.

Couldn't stop my temptation for it.

Have been drinking it for like the past 1 week.

Then we chatted and camwhore then was off to meet my dear Nic at Dhoby Ghuat.

Off to Timbre and had a feisty meal.

It was rather boring cause the live bands wasn't playing much of my genre of songs.

I ended up almost falling asleep.

Then we had a last minute decision to hit the club.

Cab off to Phuture.

Met up with Marisa's friends and Nic's friends.

Met Jaselin and I got drinks from her. :D

Drinks from Nic's friends too.

Then was partying till 3 plus am.

I think Phuture really sucks?

The genre of music wasn't my kind again.

And it was freaking crowded plus there was no podium and the place is really so so small.

Sunday 27th December 2009

Didn't had much sleep.

Like maybe 3 hours after the club?

Accompanied my sis for her haircut and also to get some ingredients for baking.

Went home and I baked the whole day while texting with Baby. :D

And it's finally the day that he is coming back!!!!

No words could express of how much I had missed you my baby!

Waited and waited for baby to come online at like 4am?

We chatted and webcam-ed as usual.

Even though things didn't end well.

But baby, I gotta say.

We will walk down this path together.

We will hold things on together.

We will persevere in this relationship together.

I will never let you go.

Monday 28th December 2009

Only fell asleep at 6 plus am after the webcam and everything.

And woke up at 8 plus am to rush and meet my dear Elaine.

Passes her the cookies and then I'm off to meet my dear Baby like finally!

After like more than a week of not seeing you. :(

Wanted to tan but somehow there wasn't any sun.

But still we enjoyed each other's company.

Then was back to your home to shower.

Checking of movie time slot.

Trying on my christmas present from you.

Chicken rice for lunch.

Watching television together.

Me falling asleep.

Off to AMK for KFC and movie.

Then was home.

Baby, I hope you'll always be here when *you know what* happens to me.

I want to thank you for everything that is making me happy now.

Because nothing can replace your position in my heart now.

Thanks for the present and the love that you shower on me.

I hope you'll like the cookies. :D

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

I love you baby! <3

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Finally

Monday, December 28, 2009, 12:55 AM

Finally my Baby is coming back!!

Missing him so so much!

I'm feeling so lack of sleep now.

All thanks to the activities yesterday.

All the clubbing and drinking from Starbucks to Timbre to Phuture.

Even my eyes are closing when I'm typing this sentence.

Can't wait for my Baby to come online!!!!!

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Day 8

Saturday, December 26, 2009, 9:23 AM

Day 8 without you

I'm updating this space earlier cause I have this urged to talk to you.

Can the time today just pass faster?

I just wished today is Sunday and not Saturday.

Gonna have tuition later from 12.00pm to 3.00pm.

I think I could only stare at the pictures of you in my phone. :(

1 more day for you to be back.

2 more days for me to see you.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

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Day 7

Friday, December 25, 2009, 8:51 PM

Day 7 without you

Merry Christmas to the remaining people who is still reading my post.

Yesterday was counting down with Nic.

At least we're not loser at all staying at home. Haha!

Muffin was there to protect us too. :D

Then at 12.00am was a wonderful surprise from Baby!

He actually called me from Penang!!!!

Chatted and I realised how much I missed him and how much he missed me!

Just 2 more days to endure and he'll be back!

Today was tanning!

I realised how much I actually missed the sun.

And now I am back to being a tan girl! :D

After tanning was back home webcam-ing with Baby!

Finally we can webcam again.

Missing him so so much!!!!

Then after that was to Granny's place then to trim my hair.

Oh yeah, bought some ingredients to do something.

Hehe! :D

If I know what love is, it is because of you.

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Day 6

Thursday, December 24, 2009, 6:32 PM

Day 6 without you

How fast time pass.

Today's Christmas Eve.

Here I am sitting waiting for you to come back soon.

If you could be back now, you could be my best Christmas gift.

But somehow I know it's impossible.

Guess I really have been missing you so so much!

I think it's not a guess.

It is true.

And of course you would know it.

I spend my time eating and sleeping only today.

Nothing productive has been done.

And here I am craving more of Starbucks.

You are indeed training me to be your pig. :D

I think I dreamt about you for the past 2 nights.

Protecting me in my dreams.

Really miss you so much!

There is no remedy for love but to love more.

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Day 5

Wednesday, December 23, 2009, 8:14 PM

Day 5 without you

Today was tuition in the morning.

Then rushing home to go online to chat with my dearest Baby and webcam-ing.

Then was off to school for FYP.

Then to Yishun to eat the super nice laksa that can make me lose weight.

Then home to have dinner.

Then chilling with Marisa at Starbucks!

We were both whining and whining about clubbing.

Shit!

I can't be addicted to it. :(

Today marks how tired I am after all the partying, birthday celebration, filming and FYP.

There would be more to come and I know it. :(

Dreading all of it.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

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Day 4

Tuesday, December 22, 2009, 8:16 PM

Day 4 without you

Spend the whole day doing FYP.

Then meeting Mum at Bugis.

This is how my holidays passed by.

Such a waste to spent it like that.

I'm missing you even more.

We didn't even do anything much this holiday.

And I'm starting to hate this holiday so much!

I miss you even more than I could have believed

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Day 3

Monday, December 21, 2009, 8:46 PM

Day 3 without you

I'm mentally drained out in school.

All the problems faced made me even more tired.

I really felt like breaking down at times.

And I really wished you were here all the while.

You would be here to give me a big hug and pull me out from all these.

How I wished you could just fly back immediately.

Could you please come back soon Baby?

Webcam-ing and chatting with you was difficult today.

The connection where you're at made it so difficult for us.

I really wish you could just appear in front of me now.

I miss you more than anything else in the world!

Tomorrow would be another long day to go.

I wish things would be easier.

真的很想很想你！

Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again.

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Day 2

Sunday, December 20, 2009, 10:06 PM

Day 2 without you

Spent my day doing FYP and thinking of you that's all.

Have to go back to school tomorrow to do filming.

I wished you were here to give me a big hug.

I wished you were here to push me to continue walking forward.

I miss you.

I really do!

I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.

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:( :( :( :( :(

Saturday, December 19, 2009, 11:00 PM

Day 1 without you.

Just came back home from Baby's house.

It's just Day 2 that we are together even though long ago we were pretty pretty close.

But he is not in Singapore anymore.

Gosh! I really hate this feeling in me.

It's like a heart-wrenching pain.

And I don't like this feeling at all.

What can I do to get this feeling off me?

I left with a heavy heart.

And I don't feel good about it because my tears are coming out.

Guess I need to occupy my mind with FYP for 1 week.

I'm missing you my dearest PIG!

很愛很愛你！

What I feel for you seems less of earth and more of a cloudless heaven.

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Happy Girl!

1:49 AM

I definitely had an unforgettable 19th birthday.

No words could describe how I'm feeling now.

I am glad that you were there for me all the while.

You are my best Birthday Gift.

I Love You!

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Happy Birthday

Friday, December 18, 2009, 8:50 AM

To myself.

I have turned 19!

I wonder what will today be like. :D

Thanks for those who called, message, MSN and Facebook to wish me!

Very much appreciated.

Too many names to put them down here. Haha!

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